i can see your eyes turn blue

high school caused me a lot of pain, but it's one of the best days of my life.  i really can't believe the phase of being a high school student is gone.  if only i can turn back to time i would. but i have to keep moving forward.  fresh start, a whole new beginning, an empty book to fill (something my favorite blogger said).

but now i'm currently finishing the book 'have a little faith' by mitch albom (amazing author btw) and in bed all day.

scene from the movie kammerflimmern/off beat ( amazing movie!) 

                                                           

in 10 hours i can officially say that i am a high school graduate. and i am so proud of myself, but graduating means leaving the people that made me be who i am today.. its honestly hard and so much to take in. all i can say is, high school is one of the best and one of the worst years of my life and i'm going to miss it so much. 

                                                     
                                                                        taylor lashae

          one of my favorites on tumblr and instagram. she's literally the most perfect girl i've ever seen!

                              been a long time since i used my camera.

march 22, 2014 9:12 PM  
based on a note from my phone


its so sad how much you can like a person who doesn't feel the same way. honestly this happened to me and all i can say is 'damn it! it hurts so fucking bad.' it feels like your insides is slowly dying, rotting actually. i can't take this anymore. today all i just want is to sleep, so that atleast for a moment i can stop thinking about it. i hate this feeling. the feeling of.. rejection. i don't want it. i tweeted about how my house is suicidal YES. it hurts. A lot. i feel so alone and so blue. Rejection at its finest.


I STOPPED CARING. I REALIZED THAT YOU SHOULDN'T WASTED YOUR TIME ON PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T APPRECIATE YOU. BECAUSE ITS NOT AND NEVER GOING TO BE WORTH IT. I LEARNED TO ACCEPT AND IT MADE THINGS A LOT EASIER FOR ME.I'M OKAY NOW AND I'M NEVER GOING TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE TWICE. 

my latest obsession: sky ferreira

in 10 days i'll be leaving high school, and i don't really know what to feel, should i feel sad? happy? or excited? well for now i'm having mixed emotions about it, because i can't really imagine my life without these people from high school, they built me for who i am today and its really hard to take in and face reality. my high school days are over and i'm moving on to the next part of my life, this is just the beginning and its already getting hard. i'm exhausted, my feet are crippled, leg cramps, sore shoulders and tons of school requirements to go. 






                      good night dear readers