settle down.

happy easter everyone! so i haven't posted in decades but here i am! since it's summer i've been reading, watching and sleeping most of the time. i don't focus much on social networking sites except for twitter and tumblr, which i can easily access on my iphone. i basically use the sites where i can easily access without the use of my computer

easter is doing good! before easter,me and my family went to 14 different kinds of church (i think it's called 14 stations idk) it's the first time i went to church in months! i rarely go to church because of 2 reasons; first of all, i hate the fact that some christians are judgemental to me in church, yes! in church! i always see them looking and whispering, it annoys me. other than that, i don't see the point why people go to church to pray for their sins and after that repeat their sins over again. don't get me wrong, like i've said before, i strongly, deeply believe and love God but i just don't practice any religion. i know it's an unpopular opinion (i think) but who cares.i'm not the type of person who tries to hide what he/she feels all the time, but of course i try to make my statements polite as possible. :)

i wish you hadn't broke my camera

i don't want to live every single day of  my life with the same boring routine. i always strive for something different and extraordinaire, it's something i look forward to everyday. i remember an old saying: "live like there's no tomorrow". for me that saying is trying to tell us that anything could happen at any moment. what if tomorrow all of us will be gone? how well do you know you will live to see tomorrow?  well, you see living life to the fullest isn't a bad thing. it doesn't mean doing the things that means regretting it afterwards. living means to spend another day, another moment with your family and friends sharing beautiful moments together and just having fun because sooner than you think all of those things will be gone. there's nothing permanent in this world.

my favorite scenes from some of my favorite movies

the black swan -

the breakfast club -

v- for vendetta

off beat -

Girl, Interrupted -

Le fabuleux destin d'amelie poulain -

i can see your eyes turn blue

high school caused me a lot of pain, but it's one of the best days of my life.  i really can't believe the phase of being a high school student is gone.  if only i can turn back to time i would. but i have to keep moving forward.  fresh start, a whole new beginning, an empty book to fill (something my favorite blogger said).

but now i'm currently finishing the book 'have a little faith' by mitch albom (amazing author btw) and in bed all day.

scene from the movie kammerflimmern/off beat ( amazing movie!) 

                                                           

in 10 hours i can officially say that i am a high school graduate. and i am so proud of myself, but graduating means leaving the people that made me be who i am today.. its honestly hard and so much to take in. all i can say is, high school is one of the best and one of the worst years of my life and i'm going to miss it so much. 

                                                     
                                                                        taylor lashae

          one of my favorites on tumblr and instagram. she's literally the most perfect girl i've ever seen!

                              been a long time since i used my camera.

march 22, 2014 9:12 PM  
based on a note from my phone


its so sad how much you can like a person who doesn't feel the same way. honestly this happened to me and all i can say is 'damn it! it hurts so fucking bad.' it feels like your insides is slowly dying, rotting actually. i can't take this anymore. today all i just want is to sleep, so that atleast for a moment i can stop thinking about it. i hate this feeling. the feeling of.. rejection. i don't want it. i tweeted about how my house is suicidal YES. it hurts. A lot. i feel so alone and so blue. Rejection at its finest.


I STOPPED CARING. I REALIZED THAT YOU SHOULDN'T WASTED YOUR TIME ON PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T APPRECIATE YOU. BECAUSE ITS NOT AND NEVER GOING TO BE WORTH IT. I LEARNED TO ACCEPT AND IT MADE THINGS A LOT EASIER FOR ME.I'M OKAY NOW AND I'M NEVER GOING TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE TWICE. 

my latest obsession: sky ferreira

in 10 days i'll be leaving high school, and i don't really know what to feel, should i feel sad? happy? or excited? well for now i'm having mixed emotions about it, because i can't really imagine my life without these people from high school, they built me for who i am today and its really hard to take in and face reality. my high school days are over and i'm moving on to the next part of my life, this is just the beginning and its already getting hard. i'm exhausted, my feet are crippled, leg cramps, sore shoulders and tons of school requirements to go. 






                      good night dear readers 

pictures from yesterday. one of the best experience of my life, we rode all the extreme rides. can't believe i'll be graduating from high school in 2 weeks, i'm going to miss this. 

my favorite movies consist of:

the breakfast club'

what's eating gilbert grape

Girl, Interrupted

haven't blogged in so many weeks already. i really don't have time to do so because of school requirements and most of the time i'm basically sleeping.

my last weeks of school is very tiring and busy because of all the school requirements i have to finish. but i am so happy to be graduating! 4 years of hard work and bullying i have dealt with is worth it. at the same time i'm sad because i will be leaving the people who made me what i am today, people that inspired me and people that i walk with on my journey through high school. 

                             

my latest obsession consist of david archie, pascal pinon, two door cinema club and sky ferreira

                                           
  my favorite clip from the movie le fabuleux destin d'amelie poulain

i like collecting vintage pictures, like these ones. all taken from different places. i always loved disposable cameras. pictures taken by my grandfather 

iceland

the back of our house

                           baguio city

London

france

baguio city

my mom and my uncle 

on our way to baguio

our house under construction

fill the past with friendly nights

febuary 7, 2014

yesterday was our prom and i had a fun time. the day before the prom i was so anxious because i didn't  really know what to expect since its my first time(and last time) going to prom. we laughed a lot, eat a lot  and of course, we danced a lot, but the hour before it was over i/we reflected on the things that had happened and all i'm going to say is. i'm going to miss this people. graduation will be in less than 2 months i'm both sad and happy about it, but i'm ready for the next chapter of my life. prom was great. its a wrap!

the other night, i watched the black swan for the 100th time because its one of my favorite movies ever. what really caught my attention is the makeup especially the part when she turned into a black swan. watching the movie makes me want to learn ballet (fyi! ballets are for boys too you know) the makeup definitely fits our theme in prom which is masquerade. i think its a good thing that our prom theme is masquerade well.. you know.. for a change i guess.. 

i stated in my blog that i don't have any religion, but that doesn't mean i don't believe in God. Well, i do believe in God and i deeply, strongly believe in his words and i do read the bible. it just so happen that my beliefs is different from the belief of my family, my beliefs is different from my friend's belief, my beliefs is different from most people. last friday, me and my friends went to see the guidance counselor, and i came across the bookshelf and saw a bible and when i opened the bible i saw genesis 21:1-7 laughing at God (its the new bible version, i think) and i immediately thought of laughing with by regina spektor which is my favorite song ever. i guess they have different meaning, but its something that really hit me when i read it.

i am in love with the weather! the sun is out, but the air is cold. i hope it stays like this forever, so i can wear sweaters even when its sunny. me and my friends decided to take pictures, and how i miss taking pictures. afterwards we had our prom practice (i'm so thrilled)it will be the first and last time. 

but now.. sweaters, regina spektor and a cup of tea.

good night dear readers,

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