why do we fall for people that we know won't love us back? why do we care for people that doesn't care about us? i guess its a mistake all of us make and the same goes to wanting the things we can't have. these popped up into my head 10 minutes ago while i was listening to regina spektor and the tv on mute and stalking my crush. i get alot of random thoughts everyday but i never really bothered to really talk about it, i guess i just have different things to worry about like school maybe? or family? friends? i don't know. still, these questions remains a mistery to me.

                                                         

            christmas party at school yesterday was fun and tiring after that my friends and i went to the mall.

feeling down these past few weeks and all i want to do is rant, but somehow i just want to keep my problems to myself, maybe because.. well... i just like it that way. i might be happy in school but the very reason is its the only time i can never think about all my problems (and yes i have a shit ton of problems). you can never tweet your feelings away without being called an attention whore or without having people to react to shit. i may have a lot of problems, but i'm still hoping that things will be better.